LoveBalm 2022 Follow Up
First of all, I’d like to take a moment to thank all the people who joined the Valentine’s Day LoveBalm Misery 2022 event.
Thank you!!! There are too many to name, some I know personally, others are friends of friends and some never let me personally know they participated yet the effect was powerful. In loving gratitude, thank you. Truly. This ‘crazy’ little idea about praying for misery that popped into my head during my January psychic read-a-thon developed into an outreach to community in hopes to make the world a better place, bottoms up. Who better to represent this hope of transformation and lifting better than a character who did. What follows is a rather lengthy and personal experience, want to skip to the summary? Warning: it’s still a few paragraphs yet shorter than what’s next.
LoveBalm MY grinchy lil heart???
As some of you may know, the night of the event was transformative for me. I had not anticipated a personal involvement in the effects of this call for prayers and so was quite surprised to be intimately addressed clairvoyantly that evening.
“Do you forgive the part of God that is (insert name)?”
Profound humbleness in recognizing who was addressing me and recognizing/realizing the oneness or interconnected-ness of us all built right into the question.
Feeling both an incredible desire to answer “YES!!!” and hesitation, I asked “what happens if I say ‘no’?”
I was shown an old fashioned wooden spoked wheel that made a full rotation, and told “the cycle would begin again and you’ve said no before.”
I have, I thought and realized I really want this cycle done. Forever.
Still desiring to say ‘yes’ but not ready, I asked “is it a sin if I say no?”
“What is ‘a sin?'”
Wait…what? What is ‘A SIN’!?!
Memories flashed: a childhood book with images of Adam & Eve, the apple, everything of church, sin, Jesus dying on the cross for OUR SINS and salvation, SIN, blame, shame, ‘you sinners,’ women’s ‘curse’ and blame as punishment. No sin, what? I felt overwhelmed.
Hesitation
I needed to digest and process all this, finding more questions than answers ~ particularly of forgiveness, church and Jesus. Also I felt I was being presented with an opportunity to answer a question that’s asked of us as we cross the rainbow bridge. As willing as my heart was to profess forgiveness, I also felt myself hesitating. This hesitation was loaded with questions and a deep need to understand the truth. So what begin as yet another round of prayers for my own participation in that event, ended with me stumbling and tripping on the path, chewing on and processing new to me truths.
Still trying to forgive
These new insights had me questioning my entire religious upbringing, the true meaning of forgiveness and the true role of Jesus Christ based on these new revelations. Reaching out to a Pastor friend of mine, PJ, we had a beautiful conversation about forgiveness. In my Catholic upbringing, forgiveness involved confession of sins and repentance usually in the form of prayers. Forgiving others was more of an implied should, but didn’t really involve addressing the emotions about an act against you. So if you forgive someone, you kinda feel ‘left high and dry’ emotionally. Clairvoyant school on the other hand, addressed forgiveness in terms of a lack of information. It’s easy to forgive people for what they don’t know, yet they’re still responsible for what they did. I liked that and forgave freely, unburdening myself and gifting myself that freedom. Until I encountered an act done knowingly, (insert name) now what?
New Information
And while I’d worked on forgiveness and forgiving, I was still holding onto this idea of karma, judgement, paying for your sins etc. Specifically I’m trying to truly forgive the part of God that is (insert name). So my friend, PJ, and I chatted about this and he shared that for him, forgiveness is an act. He went on to say ‘it’s missing the mark,’ actually military in origin, and implies that you tried to hit the target but missed. He also elaborated on it being a completed act of forgiveness the moment you chose not to treat that person the same way you were treated. An eye for an eye is not forgiveness. So to him, I had already forgiven (insert name) and all that remained were for me to release the feelings around it. Thanks PJ!
A different God?
One of the other things that I pondered was my love of this CHURCH God I’d known my whole life. You know the one, that was all about sin, the Bible, sending Jesus to save us and all the clairvoyant experiences I had in and outside of church. I really love that God and I suddenly found myself trying to reconcile the conflict I felt. For instance, I remember vividly, sitting in church one day as a child, age 7?, and just asking God “what is it you want of me?” At once I was answered “LOVE,” which actually really confused me, never mind that I heard the answer! Wasn’t I already loving God?
This confusion, contributed by other incidences, lasted for years yet this assuaged by random yet incredibly grace filled moments of deep connection and epiphanies. ( I did not know at the time that these experiences were clairvoyant as no one ever talked about the things I was experiencing and I certainly wasn’t). This was the God I prayed to so heavily, felt soo conflicted with regarding ‘his Word’ and things that happened to me and that I was experiencing – good & scary.
This was the God that kept ‘poking into’ my life. This was the God and Jesus from some of the darkest times of my life, the blessed ‘Dark Nights’ I’d experienced and survived. (I love the poem ‘Footprints in the Sand.‘) Even in leaving the church, in my heart I didn’t leave God or Jesus. It was the church community that disappointed me, or lack there of when push came to shove, but not God or Jesus.
Different relationship, same God
Even going to Clairvoyant School, this ‘out there’ training, was only reconciled for me because Sharon Turner, my teacher who’s now in spirit, included Christ and Divine Mother in her teachings. I don’t think I could have given myself permission to go to that school without the dangled carrot of Christ and Divine Mother’s involvement. Even still, my family thought I’d joined a cult! And there we learned the mysteries of “Mystery School” and felt so special to be learning about things the ‘greatest clairvoyant who ever walked the planet’ did like working with energy.
We were taught of our oneness with God, “just try and separate yourself from God” Sharon would say laughing, “I dare you!” She’d wink. And we learned of Christ energy, not just Jesus, but this level of atunement and vibration that Buddha, Allah and others embody. One of the bigger perspective changes was regarding the “2nd coming of Christ,” this idea that Jesus would just reappear one day and “save us all” was something we discussed heavily. In truth, the 2nd coming is within each of us and it comes from trusting our innate guidance system built right into our hearts.
Six years later, I’d gained confidence, had learned how to control my previously uncontrolled and random abilities and learned to really love that about myself. NY School as we called it, saved my life. And yet through it all, God or my perception of God, hadn’t changed. Sure my connection was different but the idea of God is hadn’t been challenged. I also walked away more fearful than I’d entered: reincarnate karma, energy cording & manipulations, entities, not being grounded and still not that comfortable around the deceased. Yet God, and my relation to Him/Her – I’m good.
Or so I thought…
Back to God’s question: Do I forgive the part of God that is (insert name)? This was huge and soo layered! I prayed heavily, pronounced multiple times “YES” yet still felt unsettled. It wasn’t until I met up with another clairvoyant who had participated in the LoveBalm event and we talked. (You have no idea how incredible it is to just open up a conversation with any and all things clairvoyant). It was in this dialogue that my friend mentioned a book, ‘Jesus, My Autobiography,’ and wondered if I’d read it?
I’d never heard of it. It’s actually a book that was channeled through a woman by Jesus. It’s a collection of stories, record straightening, clarification of his message, who he really is, who really are, his life, his marriage, reflections upon our culture, society, the church, the Bible, God. Powerful stuff. I really appreciate the resonance to truth I felt in reading it. I invite you to read it and see how it feels to you, trust YOUR information, your gut, your connection to God. This book is a follow-up to the 1975 publication, A Course in Miracles, which was also channeled and is quite different in tone and formatted to be read over the course of a year. The two texts are now meant to be used together to ultimately replace The Bible as the ultimate LoveBalm to misery. Thanks again DD for bringing JMA to my attention!
In conclusion
A month and 1/2 later, many of my questions have been resolved, thankfully. And in the quest for answers, I’ve found myself unlearning that which no longer serves me, including some things from clairvoyant school!, healing, learning more and energetically owning more UNITY – Christ Consciousness energy. It’s fascinating, the God I’ve so adorned, I’d always viewed through a type of separation consciousness, even after clairvoyant school.
Releasing this idea of sin changed me and peeled back a barrier between me & God in my heart. (Jesus, My Autobiography addresses this barrier creation and purposeful placement, and it’s astonishing how a lie can so shape a society.) I also, quite easily, met my new spiritual teacher (unlike the now hilarious, yet at the time felt like I was going CRAZY, way I eventually found Sharon. A story I will share on this site). Joanna Spano is helping me integrate, navigate the changes, and remember the things I chose to forget before taking this body. She lives in Maine and does monthly workshops in Auburn, NH.
Gratitude LoveBalm, right back atcha!
And now having gone through THIS walk, as a direct result of the Valentine’s Day LoveBalm Misery event; I come back to you all in gratitude. It takes a village: thank you!!! I’m so grateful, surprised, and in awe of what’s happened to me energetically. I am so joyfully and excitedly in service, now even more profoundly blown away by Spirit. Body pains I’ve carried for years are also leaving!!!! There is so so so much love, truly that’s what GOD is and only is, it’s breathtakingly beautiful, joyful, expansive and extending out to us, from within us and all around and I wish for you all to come into full unity with the Divine. As I continue to grow and learn, I look forward to sharing, here, in readings, in person, and eventually teaching classes! Thank you. Namaste!
ps. I do feel called to do another LoveBalm, still working on the details. It does feel like the next event involves a group of people who’ve read Jesus, My Autobiography and EASTER 2022. And a different approach….to be continued! All for one and one for all!!!
Also, for the record, there are a no proceed gains from these Amazon links, purely here for your convenience. Profiting would be cool though, as I intend to donate all book proceeds to charity. How about that God? I say YES!!! Just putting it out there, law of attraction, for the betterment of all!!!
Summary for people who skipped to the end!
Releasing the ultimate ‘mindf*uck,’ leaving our version of the movie Groundhog Day
What ultimately happened is a consciousness (hello – it’s me) is lifting out of separation (aka Misery) into unity consciousness – Christ Consciousness. This is a process of learning and releasing old information, particularly the idea of SIN. (Here’s where my clairvoyant teacher’s favorite saying is 100% spot on – ‘ the mindf*uck’). The ultimate mindf*ck, we were sold separation consciousness through the very institutions meant to deliver us to God. And we bought it, or most did. Even clairvoyants and clairvoyant school have aspects of this separation. And we’re perpetually paying the cost in pain and suffering.
To be fair, there are truths in every religion and there is value in being religious, no judgement. However, If you think about how religious institutions have treated humanity over the last 2000 years….we’ve been living a version of the movie ‘Groundhog Day.’ Truly, what has been the point of Jesus dying on the cross Sunday after Sunday after Sunday for millennia and us imbibing his blood and body? Would that not affect us? Like Bill Murray, we need to do something different, try something different until we figure it out.
All for one and one for all!
The beauty of this LoveBalm Misery event touched into a consciousness rising into Oneness with Source; and because we are truly one, what happens to one happens to the greater good. It’s like we’re all water and when there’s a ripple in the pond, each molecule of the water within the pond (and everywhere!!!) feels it. This concept is explained beautifully in the text, Jesus, My Autobiography, a book I highly recommend everyone read.
This book, written by Jesus as channeled through a woman, goes into great detail about Jesus the person, his teachings, his message and and what happened. He elaborates greatly in was is distorted and used as a power play that cements our separation from God, particularly culturally. JMA is also a follow-up to A Course in Miracles, and the two texts intend to be used together to ultimately replace The Bible; Profound. Awesome. Scary. Confusing POWERFUL. This book is the ultimate LoveBalm for humanity. “Nothing real can be threatened.” A Course for Miracles, Preface, p. 10.
Birth into UNITY
Our divine birthright is love, we are love, we come from love, there is only love. While many of us know this, we are not living it. The collective misery is the nightmare of living in separation consciousness and learning through pain and suffering. Given the law of attraction, this is a self perpetuating circumstance until we begin to stir and awaken from this nightmare dream state. Hence the guidance I received for creating this LoveBalm event.
Why are we here? From the living nightmare to awakening from a beautiful dream
We chose to learn through this experience, to better understand within ourselves our true power and divinity. The universe is Love, God, Source, ever present, ever creative, ever extending and everywhere. We are a part of that, as part of the whole. WE ARE AFFECTING the universe’s expansion scientists witness and document. We are surrounded by love and perpetually being beaconed to a higher vibration. Each one of us must release and transform to lift lower frequencies within bodies that we carry. We are living our karma NOW, this pain and suffering, the wars, all that feels outside of love.
Never alone, EVER, the ultimate LoveBalm!
There’s always the hand of God and all the universe supporting us, reaching out and down to us, we need to grasp upwards. It starts with a simple yet profound “yes.” YES I am one with God. Yes I release victim consciousness, yes I release war consciousness, yes I release judgement consciousness. YES. And all the little bits inside us that resist, (warning: there will be some resistance) is exactly what needs more light, more love, more God; LoveBalm Misery 2022! And yes, you can have fun with it!!! Thank you, thank you, thank you for your participation. Namaste!!!!!
Another LoveBalm?
I do feel called to do another LoveBalm, still working on the details. It does feel like the next event involves a group of people who’ve read Jesus, My Autobiography and EASTER 2022. And a different approach….LoveBalm continues! All for one and one for all!!!
Also, for the record, there are a no proceed gains from these Amazon links, purely here for your convenience. Profiting would be cool though, as I intend to donate all book proceeds to charity. How about that God? I say YES!!! Just putting it out there, law of attraction, for the betterment of all!!!